A Brush with Death

I didn't think I would make it today. I went to the dining room but I felt very dizzy. I fell to the floor in excruciating pain. Still, I was determined to eat the Pizza my step mother had prepared.

As I was lying down I thought "This is it, I'm going to die" This must have hapenned 4 or 5 times and once I fainted, made a hole in the wall and wokeup in hospital diagnosed with Mitral Valve Prolapse in the heart.

Prior to surgery with Dr Corazon Collantes, I was diagnosed perfectly healthy. Since her surgery, I've battled extreme illness, hellucinations and unbearable depression. I lost my ability to study and have been bedridden ever since.

I still don't understand why someone would lie to me and impose something so far from what we agreed upon.

I know it was not a good idea revising my nose when I was battling an infection from her surgery, but I could not cope with what she put on my face. It was not me, and it took my attractiveness away from me.

I understand now bad people live in this world, and they do not care about people, only making money. Dr Corazon lied allot to me about what she did and why she did it, she revealed to me that really she is just a very nice snake who fell in love with money. When I met her, she revealed she had a housekeeper, 2 drivers and a gardener. I wonder how she managed to build an empire on the blood and bones of innocent people?

None of her staff would even consider getting surgery with Dr Corazon. It's likely they saw even worse than what she did to me.

This isn't Plastic Surgery. It is a Plastic Surgeon. The only reason why she fixed the inside of my nose is because the nose surgeon she employed called the shots. The reason she went general on my liposuction was to teach other students how to do basic liposuction.

I did not know I would recieve such a poor result. My mistake was judging her on her word not her work.

There were many surgeons that would have done much better work, but I dismissed them and chose Dr Corazon because of her impressive Resume. I really wish I gave soneone else a chance instead of riding them off for lack of experience. I wasted my time, my body and my life on a surgeon who was a fraud and did not care. It was just the way she said things that made her appear as though she knew what she was doing. Such as calling other surgeons work 'Botched' and then herself botching her patients and providing tangible explanations as to the dissapointing outcomes of her own work. I think her play on words won her the 'fame game' but it was not the absolute truth.

It's sad that this is hapenning in this day and age and people are calling it acceptable. How someone can make money by shattering someones dreams and destroy their life and respond with 'What more could you want?'.

Unfortunately this is the world Im living in and these are the kinds of people living in it. Insincere, fraudulent type people who can make their fortune by any means, even if it creates profound human suffering.

Well thats it

I'm losing control over my body and the bad smell is re-appearing to my left ear. I don't have the energy to keep getting tests and antibiotics make me sick. I guess this insane woman was allowed to disfigure me, make me sick and leave me for dead, and she gets away with it.

I can't believe this is the kind of world I'm living in, and these kinds of decietful selfish, greedy people are what I'm dealing with.

No lawyer wants to help me unless I pay them allot of money, which I don't have. I'm desperately spending everything I have to try to get better.

It's time for me to let go and let nature finish me off. I hope Dr Corazon collantes feels proud of her quick botch lipo, and humpy droopy nose impositions. I never would have thought, if philipinos think she is a great surgeon then either they have extremely low standards or they are highly unintelligent people.

These people are so bad and so selfish, when they do something wrong they do nothing but try to cover their tracks. In all honestly, I wish Dra. CORAZON COLLANTES lifetimes of extreme pain, suffering and hardship and if I survive, I don't want anything to do with people. I prefer to live alone in the hills, away from people.

I am truly hurt and scarred, and most the lawyers in the Philippines are entirely too self interested to help.

What a bad, horrible and nasty person. What a terrible choice. Nobody would expect to come out looking worse and become extremely sick as the result of a surgeons who cuts corners to increase their profit. Lies, and hires cheap surgeons to do her work.

I want everyone to know, Dr Corazon is a bad person and an unethical surgeon and she should never have been allowed to keep her license. God saw everything she did, and all her lies to cover herself. All to save a buck. Geez. So done with this world. How can people like that be allowed to do what they do, and how could I have been so stupid to buy into her delusion.

When will this end

I cancelled my appointment with the bicom practitioner as I am just too tired. Emotionally I've settled down a little. I opted instead to purchase a health analyser. Thats another $600. Woah, this journey is expensive. Thanks to god I don't have to worry about my buccal fat pad but Im in despair that I have no hope in obtaining the body I desire.

I am finding myself falling deeper into sickness. I never imagined a trip to the Philippines to see a 'famed' surgeon would land me down this road. So what, that was just $5,000 for her.

I feel really douped. Now im fighting for my life. 8 months down of treatment. My main progress is that I'm no longer going to the hospital... well at least not as often.

So the trip cost me $9,000 altogether. With that money I spent, I recieved an attrocious result and a serious decline of my health... to the point of almost death.

I'm not sure I am going to survive this. Unless they give me antibiotic drips, this may be a long road of hell.

I'm not sure what kind of infection I got from her surgery or what caused it. But I am very very sick and im succombing to the reality that a trip to this surgeon cost me more than money, losing my beauty, it may probably cost me my life.

After her surgery I was battling severe anxiety, hurt, anger, severe fatigue and frustration. I attempted suicide twice. I did not want to look like that. That nose was my worst nightmare. It was worse than my biological nose. I gave up. I choose to die rather than live with that result.

But attempting suicide was far harder than I thought. God must be keeping me alive for a reason.

6 months after the surgery I had my nose revised in thailand. The whole trip cost me $10,000 altogether, I had to take half of that off my credit card but nothing was going to stop me from revising it. He wasn't able to give me what I wanted but it was much much better. I pushed myself to get up and see him. I didn't have much of a choice. I didn't come this far to look worse than ever. On my way back through the manilla airport, I almost collapsed. But I made it. God gave me the strength to survive those 2 weeks and come back home, he saw me through.

I couldn't believe someone would give me a pointy, droopy nose with a pinched tip and tell me she gave me a 'beautiful aladdin nose' wtf this lady is completely messed up. If I had known she was a fruad, god knows I would be in a better position.

So ive been taking allot of herbs and now, decided to make my own tinctures. Im being pro-active. Im at deaths door but this aint what god wants for me. I feel like he has told me in my heart than he needs me to stay and heal people. Ive noticed that allot of people are battling hard to treat infections in this era.

Surely this world cannot be a cruel, unforgiving place, full of false smiles and deception.

There must be someone in the Philippines who is ethical, compassionate, knowledgable and experienced who would give way to their analytical mind to see that justice must be served.

Surely I'm not alone. Surely god will send me someone to help me out of this predicament. Or am I expected to heal myself and fix this surgeons so called 'mistakes'. Sure, like its a mistake to ignore patient needs and wants while deliberately misleading them into thinking you will give them what they want.

I didn't know there were such fake deceptive people in this world and that I would fall victim to them.

I don't know who on earth would see someone so they can impose on them what they want against their will.

If I knew she had this distorted idea in mind god knows I would run.

I wish I could have read her mind...

But then again I did... on the day of the surgery in the hospital a surge of panic came through me, I knew something was wrong. I made her promise to just straighten my nose. I thought everything else was basically well understood. My intuition did pick up something was wrong.

She held my hand before I went under anesthesia and said "Don't worry, you're in good hands".

I should have trusted myself and backed out, but I thought it was just fear. It was more than that, it was an inner warning.

I learned from that experience to trust a person on their work, never their word. Surgeons don't put their work online if its terrible. But that doesn't stop them from doing it.

It would be nice to live in a world where people honour their word.

I think she is a demonic person. I think she imposed her own desire of what I should look like on me, which was totally wrong for me. The best way to choose a surgeon, is to see if their work fits in with your vision. Nobody will go out their way for you.

But I hope not to get anymore surgery, just enough to fix what has gone wrong.

Ok I have to go hard on the herbs and rife. Im deeply sick and the only thing that is sustaining me is god. The antibiotics scare me. They exasperated problems with my heart.

Patience. Patience... God please bring the right lawyer to me!!

Vahid.

The mistake that almost cost me my life

In December 2013 I decided to see a cosmetic surgeon for plastic surgery following frustrations about not being able to acheive the body I desire.

Me and the surgeon agreed to the following;

Buccal fat pad removal
Liposuction under the chin
Liposuction around the waist
Rhinoplasty revision

I advised the surgeon that I wanted the nose straightened and the tip projected forwards, a slight sucked in look with my buccal fat pads, and waist lipo.

The surgeon seemed confident she would deliver the result she promised. I showed her photoshopped pictures of exactly how I wanted my nose and cheeks. When I was in her office I even put nose splints in my nose to further demonstrate the appearance I desired. Not once did she decline nor tell me what I wanted was unachievable.

When I awoke from the aneasthesia the result was my worst nightmare come to reality. My nose was sketchy thin (it was not swollen at that point), it had a dorsal hump and elongated downwards promptly, furthermore than I had ever had in my life and the tip was very pointy and pinched. I would say it was quite opposite to what I desired.

I expressed my extreme distaste for what I found embedded in the middle of my face. The surgeon told me it looked fine and that the tip would lift. It did not.

Furthermore I noticed a lumpiness and hardenning up of tissue on my ribcage area. I realised this area was not the area that was marked for liposuction.

As time went by, I formed two indentations on my cheeks and my body had formed an odd hour glass shape with my lovehandles portruding out. The tip of my nose continued to droop over time. The premaxillary area of the nose became depressed into my face. The nose began to form into a thin, pinched beak like shape. My left ear cartlidge was also over resected and disappeared into the side of my head. An awful odour also began to omit out of my left ear - the ear to which cartlidge was resected.

6 months later I booked a flight to see a nose specialist who was famed for fixing botched noses. The surgery took in total 5 hours. The appearance was much improved.

With prayer and meditation I was able to activate a process which allowed my buccal fat pads to grow back. They began to grow back and as did some of my ear cartlidge.

Over time I was becoming increasingly ill and tired. Doctors were not able to find the problem. I had begun hellucinating at that point; such as, seeing objects duplicate disappear and re-appear, and fearing family members were part of a spiritual conspiracy to have me 'pass over'. Finally, I sought assistance from a bicom practitioner. She found numerous bacteria including borrelia bugderfori and bartonella henslai - common in lymes disease sufferers.

In 2016 I sought treatment with bicom but results were limited. I decided to buy my own rife machine called 'Spooky2'. I have been stradily treating myself with herbs and rife. I have improved much so, I am no longer hellucinating and the stench coming out of my left ear has ended, however I am still very fatigued and bedridden. I am on a course of antibiotics, herbs and rife.

Most of my buccal fat pads have revealed itself and some of my ear cartlidge has returned. The waist liposuction has still left me with very obvious streaks around my rib cage, indentations and an oddly shape. My nose is much improved however it has reduced in size, I continue to enlargen my nose in pictures.

At the moment revision surgery is out of the question as I am far too ill and my money has gone towards healing my body. I am also smoking to help me cope with the crippling depression and anxiety I feel everyday.

I fear I will never be beautiful again.