The anxiety I felt from the horrifying surgery has been too much to bare. I have been left dealing with somataform disorder or 'somatic' disorder. I blame myself, it was my choice to believe in plastic surgery that ruined my life. It was one persons decision to do 'standard' procedures and ruin my body which led to severe panic attacks and severe pain manifesting in my body. I've been praying to god day and night to undo the plastic surgery operations I've had. I don't understand why Dr Corazon didn't listen to me and why she decided to do something completely different to what we agreed. But I have a feeling it is because she wanted to train two trainees in standard procedures.
I'm left here to bare the pain and regret. And it's too much for me. I'm left taking pain killers and muscle relaxants. This is a lesson learned the hard way. I wish I fought my desire for plastic surgery.
This just goes to show folks, when the Devil arises, the weak go forth. And that's exactly what happened. The Devil whispered in her ear and she said yes. Because apparently training two students and making a little extra $$$ is that important.
The worst part is she really lied about her offences even though she did nothing in our agreement.
I take accountability for trusting a greedy person with my body.
Now I am going to succumb to death. Because I can't handle the anxiety of what has happened to my body.
People remember don't believe in plastic surgery.
It's not worth it when it ruins your life.
