A Brush with Death

I didn't think I would make it today. I went to the dining room but I felt very dizzy. I fell to the floor in excruciating pain. Still, I was determined to eat the Pizza my step mother had prepared.

As I was lying down I thought "This is it, I'm going to die" This must have hapenned 4 or 5 times and once I fainted, made a hole in the wall and wokeup in hospital diagnosed with Mitral Valve Prolapse in the heart.

Prior to surgery with Dr Corazon Collantes, I was diagnosed perfectly healthy. Since her surgery, I've battled extreme illness, hellucinations and unbearable depression. I lost my ability to study and have been bedridden ever since.

I still don't understand why someone would lie to me and impose something so far from what we agreed upon.

I know it was not a good idea revising my nose when I was battling an infection from her surgery, but I could not cope with what she put on my face. It was not me, and it took my attractiveness away from me.

I understand now bad people live in this world, and they do not care about people, only making money. Dr Corazon lied allot to me about what she did and why she did it, she revealed to me that really she is just a very nice snake who fell in love with money. When I met her, she revealed she had a housekeeper, 2 drivers and a gardener. I wonder how she managed to build an empire on the blood and bones of innocent people?

None of her staff would even consider getting surgery with Dr Corazon. It's likely they saw even worse than what she did to me.

This isn't Plastic Surgery. It is a Plastic Surgeon. The only reason why she fixed the inside of my nose is because the nose surgeon she employed called the shots. The reason she went general on my liposuction was to teach other students how to do basic liposuction.

I did not know I would recieve such a poor result. My mistake was judging her on her word not her work.

There were many surgeons that would have done much better work, but I dismissed them and chose Dr Corazon because of her impressive Resume. I really wish I gave soneone else a chance instead of riding them off for lack of experience. I wasted my time, my body and my life on a surgeon who was a fraud and did not care. It was just the way she said things that made her appear as though she knew what she was doing. Such as calling other surgeons work 'Botched' and then herself botching her patients and providing tangible explanations as to the dissapointing outcomes of her own work. I think her play on words won her the 'fame game' but it was not the absolute truth.

It's sad that this is hapenning in this day and age and people are calling it acceptable. How someone can make money by shattering someones dreams and destroy their life and respond with 'What more could you want?'.

Unfortunately this is the world Im living in and these are the kinds of people living in it. Insincere, fraudulent type people who can make their fortune by any means, even if it creates profound human suffering.

Bugs

I had seen various bugs leave my body. I have felt crawling sensations. I identified one as a stink bug.

Other things ive seen leave my body which I did not see before my surgery are mites, fleas, crawlies (looks like little spider ants) my skin goes yellow like sometimes and I don't look as young as I used to.

My body feels very stiff.

I spoke to someone online and he told me about the term "necrophages". Bugs that help matter decompose.

Yupp. Im the living dead.

It doesn't matter how much I use my rife machine or take herbs, my body is still under enermous stress. Trying to survive while nature wishes to finish me off.

Having a possible myserious disease on top of all this does not make it easier.

Despite my slow and steady decline into death, no lawyer in manilla is willing to help me without a quite a fee. Whatabout out of good stature? Ha!

When the bhagadvagita spoke of this reality as sinful, it wasn't kidding!

I didn't realize this world is overcrowded with arrogant people. If I knew, I don't think I would put so much faith in it. The minute they have an oppertunity to do a good deed, their ego convinces them otherwise.

So im dying without proper recognition, not being assisted by any lawyer and the decieving surgeon keeps my money towards her 'lifestyle of the rich and famous' retirement fund. Meanwhile im spending every cent I have trying to survive.

Crumbs!

Bedridden

I know I got an infection from the Philippines as I've been bedridden since the surgery. Before my surgery there, I was studying part time.

Now I'm in bed all day. I'm very scared of what my body will look like when I lose weight, as the liposuction was performed completely unproportionally. I found one person in the Domican Republic who does superb work, but even if I could afford it, which I can't right now. I'm far too sick for surgery.

If I had only not made that choice. I regret judging my surgeon on her reputation as opposed to her actual work. It's not difficult to decieve people.

I'm taking anti parasitic herbs, liver cleansing herbs and oregano essential oil as it is a natural antibiotic. I have been rifing the lyme infections; babesia, ehrlichia, bartonella, borrelia, mycoplasma. However I can't seem to find the problem that has made me so sick. I am too exhausted to get further blood tests, and I remain bedridden for the time being.

I think I was very neive to believe this woman in the Philippines. I think people these days care more about money than people.

Im seeing a bicom therapist so I can get a printout of what infections im dealing with.

My buccal fat pads are still growing back; I'm very thankful for that. Unfortunately im not seeing much success growing back the fat on my body. I can't believe I am living im a world where people are allowed to do what my plastic surgeon did and get away with it.

If I could recover I would want to go to the Philippines and take this woman to court. But with the current state of my health this is impossible. I know there must be a good, ethical, affordable god serving lawyer in manilla who is well versed in medical malpractice and would want to help.

I continue to meditate and pray that I no longer live in a world of deceit and injustice. I have called upon the holy fire to help purify me and the world. I want to live in a fair and just society where we care more about helping people than building our own empire.